I had my follow-up appointment with the surgeon this afternoon, and learned that what was removed was cancer. Well, that was actually a shock, more, I guess than it should have been, but I had no strong feelings that it would be positive. Shows what I know.
I do have to have chemo, now. Talk about a whole new road ahead, and I don't know the route. But I do know Who does, and I am still amazed by His care for me. The tumor that showed up on the CT that led to us finding this diagnosis, was not in the bowel, but nearby. I had several months of recurrent vomiting, that resulted in the CT being done in an ER visit. Then, one more episode of vomiting, and then NOTHING. The last time I had the problem was June. But nothing about this tumor would have caused symptoms, yet. In fact, the surgeon today said that it might have taken a year more for me to start having symptoms, and by then, it would obviously have been more advanced. So I've been thinking that God just wanted it out, and allowed me to have all those episodes just long enough for someone to have a reason to do the testing, so this could be found early enough.
I have prayed during this waiting period, that it would NOT be cancer, and kept adding, that it was because I just want an easier route. I mean, God already knows, but I guess I wanted Him to understand that I feel safer with Him now, since Mallorie. Safer in His choices for me. More confident in His love, so I didn't always say it, but He knows what I meant ... that I knew He knew best for me, and I was deferring to Him. And God loves me, and clearly wants me to grow some more.
So please pray for me while I learn and grow. And for my family.
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